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Monday, July 10, 2006

Hmmm...

...I have really mixed feelings about my last post today. Maybe the following is warranted, maybe not...but I am blogging it because I need to.

I know to some I sound really over-dramatic talking like tonsillitis is the worst thing since the plague, or something like that. But, to me, being sick is the most awful thing. I would rather give birth than have tonsillitis...being in labour for me was NOTHING compared to how sick I am when those little bacteria are running rampant in the back of my throat. It makes me want to curl up and die, and I never want to feel like that again.

Those of you who really know me will know that I beat myself up for "whining" about being sick. I am not a whinger. I am not self-centered or egotistical. I am not out for sympathy or attention, nor am I trying to put my own problems above anyone else's. I am just trying to show my life how it is...and a lot of the time it is a struggle. I have issues, just like everyone else. I have been sick so much in my adult life, with things that left me incapacitated and it has taken all of my strength to overcome these times (I won't go into detail here). Each new period of ill-health, no matter how small, is a reminder of those times in my life. But, I am still here...thanks to one fantastic GP who was willing to listen, two magic pills that I must take everyday for the rest of my life, and mountains of constant mental hard work. Sometimes it's easy, and then other times it's unbearably hard...but I won't give in. I'm here to stay...and no one can ever take that away from me.

Thank you to those of you who understand that I'm just, well...me. Me on a scrapbook page, there for the public to see, and that is of my own choosing. But I won't pretend all is fine and dandy...that's not me either. What you see is what you get...just ME...no pretences...and I'm just trying to muddle through the best way I know how.

7 Comments:

Blogger Peta said...

{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

You know I'll never think any of that!! I hope you're feeling much better soon hun...

and can I wahoo here about all the good news scrapwise you've had - I hope you get better so you can enjoy every momment of all that :)

Tuesday, 11 July, 2006  
Blogger Shazz said...

OMG Karen....i feel awful....i have been looking at your blog everey day and i noticed you haven't been posting so i was refreshing the page everytime i visited and still no new entries and all of a sudden all these new entries have appeared and i have just read them and i feel awful - awful for you and the pain you are in, you poor chook and awful becauae i didn't know it was all going on.
i hope that you are feeling better soon and that you find a decent doc (and tell me where you can find one of those these days...???) that can get to the problem of your recurring tonsil trouble.
take care my dear friend.
love ya

xo

Tuesday, 11 July, 2006  
Blogger Belinda said...

Chin up Karen..
I don't know you IRL, but to me, you seem like such a warm, gentle and kind person..whch i am sure you are!
Don't worrie what others think, you just keep being lil ol' you!
Anyway, everyones allowed to have a whinge once in awhile. (ok, i admit, i do it a little more than some lately..lol.)
Keep smiling..

Belinda
xx

Tuesday, 11 July, 2006  
Blogger Janelle Wind said...

Oh Karen, please don't feel like we are sitting back here judging you. I applaud you for being brave enough to put the real you 'out there'. I agree, if you didn't you wouldn't be you and being sick all the time does get you down - totally.

I used to get Tonsillitus every two weeks as a child and was scheduled to get my tonsills out. I was too afraid so went to a specialist GP who treats with natural remedies as well as drugs - whatever works. Do you know I have never had tonsillitus since. My hope you for you is that somewhere someone can help get you well and stop this from re accuring.

Please stay being you and talk to us, we love hearing about you and your life both good and bad. You take care of you xx nellie

Tuesday, 11 July, 2006  
Blogger jenni d'amato said...

Hi Karen,

To me you have been warm, helpful and funny...that's all seems good to me...we all have issues some of us just hide them better than others....from one stuffer upper to another....lol..
Jenni damato

Tuesday, 11 July, 2006  
Blogger NuttyScrapper said...

Yeah you rock girl - you can say and be whatever you want! I think people relate to it - better to know the 'real' you instead of all the nice warm and fuzzies all the time - no one can be like that!
Lou

Wednesday, 12 July, 2006  
Blogger Yolande said...

CYBER HUGS Karen... I think it sometimes helps to "type"/talk it certainly does me - and it's about being true to yourself... I don't think people would judge you for that but admire you. It takes courage to put yourself out there - I love your attitude to life so go on being YOU...{although I do hope that you get better soon so you can be a healthier YOU} Take care dude...

Thursday, 13 July, 2006  

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